MSN..

突然间，有些微妙的改变。

以前，我们常常在MSN里东南西北得很愉快；
现在，我们不聊了。
以前，我都会主动找你；
现在我没找，你也不会来找我。

一厢情愿的喜欢，就是这样吗？

当一方觉得聊的每一句话都是蝴蝶时，
另一方只是把它当成风，
听一听飘一飘，
就让它过去了。

单恋的悲哀，就是这样吗？

两个绿色小格子，两个Available的灵魂。
却再也不曾被点击。
只是各忙各的，各过各的。
没有再交集。

有时候，
我还是想要吵吵你，
让你知道我还喜欢你。

只是，
得到的回应都好简单，
简单到我没有勇气再写下一句。
然后就没了连续。

慢慢地，
两个绿色格子只剩一个在闪烁，
你不再上线了。

而我就像是戒着毒的瘾君子，
突然犯起了毒瘾，
浑身变得不自在。

牵着我的手

天灰灰的下午，我们站在马路旁。
行人用的绿灯，小绿人开始奔跑了。
剩下五秒，我们还有一个路口要过。
他急急地过了马路，然后转头。
以为我也跟上了他的脚步，顺利地过了马路。

但没有，我被红灯留在路的那一边。

“你可以牵着我的手。”当我穿越马路之后，他笑着对我说。“因为一个人等红灯，感觉很寂寞。”

我想我记住这句话了。

糟糕..

今天真是糟糕。
原来无意间我又hurt了一个人。
健忘真可怕，
我真可怕。

对不起啦！

还有，世界上的人真的好多。
观念也好多。
遇到与自己观念不和的人，
是很惨的悲哀。
我早上的心情就是被这种悲哀打散了。

还好下午下了一场雨，
这场雨好巧不巧地，冲走了坏情绪。
然后快乐又获得了重生。

谢谢温柔的这场雨，让我停止折磨自己。

频率 苏打绿

是不是只能透過双手　爱才会有交直流
我　也找不到夠坚強的插座
看天空里浮云悠游　羨煞了我的不自由
我站在窗口　我蹲在角落　听你的流动

谁說　学不了微风　过眼从山间飞过
看　耳边的窩　堆成泡沫
嚥了下一口　就放出彩虹　落在我胸口

跳动的世界里找你的頻率
靜止也不休息　抓住你的呼吸
我　再多說一句　猜你的回应

谁說　学不了微风　过眼从山间飞过
看　耳边的窩　堆成泡沫
嚥了下一口　就放出彩虹　落在我胸口

跳动的世界里找你的頻率
靜止也不休息　抓住你的呼吸
我　再多說一句　猜你的回应
流动的世界里找你的旋律
转眼整个世界　只剩你的应許
今夜就开始放晴（我　放自己飞行　在有你的记忆）

我身上还有　春天的痕迹
尘封的记忆　已开始飘零
瞬间　和永远　零距离

- - -

找了好久了，这首歌。
终于让我知道，它的歌名。
还有，它的歌词。
不知道为什么，
就是听不腻。
装了很多回忆吧。
反复聆听，一直到，
眼泪终于释放。

我好怀念从前。

问候

好久没有静下心来问问自己：

“你好吗？”

我的朋友们，对不起啊。
最近都没有问候一下你们。
太忙了，可是不知道其实在忙什么鬼。
只是忙到......（拉长音~）
我也忘了我自己。

大家过得好，就好。

最近..

生活变得乱糟糟的，
不是随便拿个扫把就可以把它打扫干净。

这几天，吃了很多回忆，
肚子有点消化不良。
两趟飞机把两个朋友送到国外，
我留在这里等待。
有人等待都是幸福的吧？
你们真幸福，
至少有我这份牵挂。

而我呢，呵，有什么？
只有乱。
独留我在这个一直都陌生的城市里，
对着电脑自怜。
真不好受。

本来想搬着电脑跑到星巴克里坐着叹咖啡，
就像美国人花美国时间那样，
多写意，对吧？

可是，美国starbucks只需要两美元，
这里却要马币十五块。
你坐得下吗？
我坐不下。

所以只好跑到星巴克旁边的休息椅，
坐着上网，看着人来人往。
等着灵感。

不用花钱的休闲。

然后觉得自己少了一点点滋润，
爱情，的滋润。
好像很少对爱幻想了，
浪漫的幻想是可以让生活变得更美好一点的。
难怪最近那么糟，
原来少了白日梦。

所以就跑到书局里买了一本爱情小说，
想要找回当初对爱情怀有的甜蜜。
花了整个晚上读完，
才发现自己买到一本悲剧。
雪特！(shit~)

我走过的每一个地方，
都有一段故事。
时间久了，
当故事叠着故事，
叠成一个厚度时，
就不再是个故事。

而是回忆了。

回忆之所以美好，
是因为就算刻意再去重建，
也没办法跟原来的一样了。

这就是为什么回忆只适合回味，
而不适合留恋。
因为无论你再怎么留恋，
它也不会重现。
没有骗你。

唉，是我想太多，
你总这样说。

或许，
该放弃了吧？

可是，舍不得。
就是舍不得。

Holiday..

Holiday went on.
Few days passed.
Still haven't touch my books.
Quite bad.

Somehow, my holiday wasn't a waste.
It's been a colourful days.

Friday 18.9.09
sis came for a visit.
we went to Timesquare.
Whole day.

Then night we went to airport.
Our cousin is leaving to UK.
2 years can't meet.
going to miss her soon.

Saturday 19.9.09
Shopping kaki like us like to go shop.
we went Midvalley whole day.

There's a puzzle room..full of puzzles with glowing in the dark.
very very charm.
like a magic room.
if u wear white shirt is better..
will be like this :

Nice huh?

And there's a MRSMian non-muslim reunion.

just few of us gathered around.
haiz. cannot meet all.

only 6 of us.
what a waste.

And we met our aunt.
wow..is Midvalley place for people to meet?
i wonder.
hehh.






Because i'm so busy outing everyday,
my hamsters slept all the time.
poor lil thingy.
Sory aa Monster and The Beast.

Poor.. zzZ all the time. (=.=")

To be continue...

Laughing Point?!

How low is your laughing point?

My friends said that,
i got a really really really low laughing point.
which means that i can simply LAUGH for nothing,
and a simple act can make me LAUGH to hell.

Is that true?
I guess so.
If u wanna find out the truth,
ask me out for a movie.
Then u'll know.

p/s : sorry, no horror movies are available here. I'm basically a mousy person. ^^

B.A.S.K.E.T.B.A.L.L.

Today was totally awesome. Because after...(counting)...1 year 3 months and 17 days, i'd played basketball again! wow~ isn't it cool? hahaa. And i found out something that really thrilled me up---my stamina is still as gud as last time. Because i didn't felt tired AT ALL. When we stop playing i was like, yerr not enough, i want to play more. But its boys turn, not gud for me to ask for too muc. Cannot be so selfish, especially this is my 1st time to have a play there.

But my head was hit by someone. pain pain and faint faint abit. Its an accident i know, i'm not blaming anyone. somehow the feel of excitement already covered everything. Touching a basketball was so glorious that my heart quickened with every bounce of it. I miss basketball i know.

If, if and only if i have the chance to play there again, i'm going to buy my own ball and bring it there. Don't want to waste any moment that can make me have more practise on it. Special thx to Yapan who invited me there, DingDing who fetched me there, KahhYenn who accompany me there, and others who played with me there.

I love Sunday.
It's always a gud Sunday.

放假了

一个礼拜的假期，又来了。
可以好好休息，
也可以让我好好想想，
是不是该继续喜欢你。

喜欢一个人是很累的，
尤其当你不知道他是不是也喜欢你时，
更累。

读书都很累了，
还要去猜测这些，
我怕我会累死。

虽然感觉控制不了，
但是应该可以减少。

我不想让历史重演。
那种撕裂心脏的痛，
一次就够了。

康乐夜市

今天去康乐夜市。
人群没有想象中那般汹涌，H1N1的关系吧。
可是还是必须慢慢挤慢慢走。
还有专人指挥交通，好夸张哦！

原来没有想象中...好玩。
还好有洁华陪我。
一条长长的街道，
两个小小的女生。
走啊走，在人群中穿梭。

我看到一条很美的项链，
可是它很贵。
很想买可是不能买，
只好把遗憾留在那里。

还有嗅到让我想吐血的臭.豆.腐！
天啊，没想过它会那么那么臭！
比传说中比想象中更臭。
真的不会形容，自己去嗅才知道。
以前想过要尝试的，现在...
算了吧。
臭到我都没有勇气拿来放进嘴里。
真的好臭好臭，
可是却好多人排队!
奇怪。

买了一个很可爱很可爱的小东西，


放牙刷的。
很可爱哦！我很喜欢。
洁华眼光真不错。

康乐夜市，到过了。
开始寻找下一站。
哈哈，体验生活。
就是这样。

...

好 . 想 . 哭

寂寞太久

压力太大

好想逃避

好想哭

早上醒来...

烦恼，今天早上醒来就开始烦恼。成绩单那天忘了给二伯签。很烂，不敢拿给他签名，所以拜五那天就选择性失忆，把它忘了。到了今天，要上课了，才硬着头皮拿出来给伯伯签。还以为他会骂我会埋怨会愤怒，心里准备早就有了，还想了很多理由，至少可以不被骂得太惨。只是没想到事情并没有如我想象般发生，反而往反方向走...二伯对我那烂到不能再烂的成绩不但视而不见，还说：“我看的是品行，不是你的成绩。”我顿时松了口气，因为我知道品行我绝对是A 的。松了口气的同时，感动也来了。因为没有被骂。我从小最怕被骂了，因为很少人骂我。所以一有人骂我，我就会哭。我不喜欢哭，所以我讨厌被人骂。还好二伯他没有骂我，还好。不然我想我会哭着去上学。好感动哦~

p/s : And now i'm able to go to play basketball. Its been like centuries i haven't play ball, miss it sooooo muc. Thx to those who are willing to contribute their help. LeeLi really appreciate that. Thanksss!

蝴蝶

不知道为什么，有个想法一直在我脑海里盘旋，挥之不去。

蝴蝶。

明年生日，我要为自己的右肩刺上一只蝴蝶。

天晓得我为什么会有这样的冲动。

我自己也不太清楚。

决定了。

1月23日那天，我就去刺青，刺一只蝴蝶。

为青春留下一个永恒的痕迹，在我20岁之前。

只为了证明，我曾疯狂过。

Sunday Again

This Sunday i went to Sunway find JingWen. Actually plan to skate there, but i didn't bring my socks...(-_-") . Then, puff~ dream off. No skating today. Haiz. So we just went to shop, eat Sushi (^^)..i walked with high heels again, then still hurt my feet! Damn~ its not easy to be a girl, especially a gal with high heels.

Boys, when ur girlfren is out with u, pls pay more attention. Dun walk too fast, observe her wether she's walking comfortly or not. Must care..care. U guys have to know that ur gf wear heels just because of u!

Here we go the Sakae Sushi again. Yet still eager to take those photo! hahaa.

Sorry sharon, i didn't call u along..(^^")..dun be mad at me k? next time when i want to go skate i'll call u out. Hehh.

And the Baskin Robbins. This is my 1st taste on it. No bluffing. I never eat this before, even when i know its existence. Mint chocolate, nice nice. No wonder its soooooo expensive. (=.=")

Despite of my injured feet, i'm quite satisfy with today.

p/s: actually if no inccident i'm goin to play basketball de, but then canceled ady. Somehow it rains, for my God's sake. So..luckily i didn't go. hahaa.

Aiko

Aiko

属于我的 日文名字

当我踏上日本那片土地后

Aiko 就是我的名字。

无能为力

梦想...被爱困住。想飞，却无能为力。
深思过，考量过，最后却还是抵挡不了爱情的力量。

所以，沦陷了。
却也无能为力。

我不是...

我不是天才。

我不是聪明的，
我不是厉害的,
我不是优秀的，
我不是完美的。

我不是，我什么都不是。
充其量，我只是个平凡的笨蛋。

平凡的笨蛋。

I Love Sunday...

Sunday.

2 hometown friends called me out. It's nice to hang with them, and shop with them! Well, they never fade up with my shop-by-shop walking, instead they help me alots with stuff i'm choosing. That's what i want, a loyalty partners.




While we're shopping, a bundle of Stitch were accidentally found by us. Hahaa, photo taking was unevitable. Every moment shall be a special moment, one day. So, never doubt to snap it down. (^_^)





Someday, we will remember today. As long as the photo live, so does our friendship.






And i can't stop myself for letting it go. It's sooooo cute. Expensive as well. Know that i'm not going to own it by buying, I own it this way...by photograghing.






If and only if i have alots of $$...I'm going to buy this.







Lunch time in Sakae Sushi. Enjoy is what i can say. I like sushi. I LOVE sushi. It's been long i haven't eat sushi, thank god they came and asked me out. And decided to eat sushi. Well, too hungry I have no time to take photo..only pics on afterward. Haiz.






And Dino brought us to a place called "ZEN", a place to have a tea. This is the product of 1 of his friend's. A chef. Hmm. Taste good. Well, Dino is a chef too, still learning in IntiGenting.


It's been 7pm when i reach home.
Happy.
Tomorow school start.
So good.

I love Sunday.
Hehee.

最讨厌

知道吗？
我最讨厌不成熟和没有时间观念的人了，
因为他们总是很不负责任。
把别人害得很惨。

我真的很讨厌这种人。

爱的艺术

不成熟爱是：

因为我需要你，
所以我爱你。


成熟的爱是：

因为我爱你，
所以我需要你。


成熟与否，
不是在于你的年龄有多大，
而是在于你，
对爱情的认识有多少。

Monster and The Beast

Monster my hamster..pretty isn't she?
But i guess she's just too alone. When i'm away to school, to shop, to sport and to sumwhere else.
She will be all by herself.
I hate loneliness..i wun let her feel that way.

so...




I find her a prince, named The Beast.
He's charming, isn't he?
(gosh, leeli is going crazy with her own imagination)
well, i hope that Monster will like him.




Monster :"Mummy, there's a stranger in my castle. What am i going to do?"
Lee Li :"Dear, u should go and bit him good evening. It is impolite for u to ignore him. Behave like a princess, go."
Monster :"But...i'm shy."
Lee Li :"You're pretty dear, go."
Monster :"Yes mum."




Monster :"Hajimemashite,watashi nor namae wa Princess Monster desu."
The Beast :"Konichiwaa, watashi nor namae wa Prince The Beast desu. Hajimemashite."
......
......



Hmm...guess they will be good friend.
perhaps...a good couple, too.

(^_^)



p/s : The Beast is a sport kaki too!
Good.

Taadaa~

Hope that they can live happily ever after.

Monster and The Beast.

A becoming wonderful fairy tales.

hah.

To be continue...

*Hajimemashite (japanese) = nice to meet u!

搞错哦~

做数学题做到我好想吐血！



天啊。



中六数学是人做的吗？啊？



天啊~

今天

睡迟了，没有赶上公车。(-.-")
... ...

嗯，终于开学了。
又可以每天见到你了。

虽然...我们之间，
还是很陌生。

但我还是很开心，
非常开心。


暗恋都是这样的，不是吗？