丽莉 The Story Of A Girl: August 2009

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Today i went to a bookfest with 1 of my classmate, Sky. To my surprise, the bookfest was awesome but peoples were less than i expected. It is great, i thought. Atleast i can walk freely without any blocking body (^^)... So we started from Hall 5 the chinese part. Wow~ many many books that are CHEAP! Cheap to hell! All original with an awesome price. I already bought some of it long time ago, with the scare-u-to-death price. Now see back those books, i was wondering why not i just wait for few months and buy it now? I get to save my $$ then. Haaiz (-.-").

After wandering for around 2 hours, finally i grapped this:

My favourite singer Jay's piano note on plenty of his songs with RM17.9o[UsualPrice RM39.90!]

and this:

A travelling book for single woman like me (I always dream of going other country as a backpacker) with RM18.90[UsualPrice RM38.00]

also this:

A book just to help make urself a better one with RM22.90[UsualPrice RM37.90] .

Then we walked to Hall 1 the english part. Oh no, the books are CHEAPER! CHEAPIEST! Oh no oh no......i guess i'm going to pokkai after this. Don't care don't care.

But i don't hav enough $$ to buy all those too!
yorr..so 'gek sam' laa!

After 3 hours of taking up putting down, finally i choose this:

The Host by Stephanie Meyer with RM27.90[UsualPrice RM37.90]

and these two:

Author of P.S I Love You with RM49.90[UsualPrice RM74++]

and these three:

Litttle Black Dress Series with RM 44.00[UsualPrice RM66++].

Haa.

My books.

and also few stationery.

Well, pokkai jor.

But satisfied.

(>.<)

* pokkai = no more $$

Friday, August 28, 2009

爱来过...

某一天突然发现，
对你，
我已经不再迷恋。

四年，
我喜欢你四年了，
说长不长，
说短也不算短的时间，
就这样在我醒来的某一天里，
全都化为曾经。

你来过，
爱来过，
我幸福过。

你的来电铃声，
我改用<爱来过>这首歌,
告诉自己你已经变成回忆。

因为，
喜欢你，
真的变成了回忆。

我看不开也放不开
因为我曾见过爱情真的盛开
我要等待一直等待
等那一个夜晚从回忆回来
当你拥抱着我那一瞬间
我像飞到空中
而当我缓缓降落我不再是我
我有了梦我在梦中

爱来过
来得那么美那么凶
欢呼着从我生命狠狠碾过
连遗憾也都不争气的珍惜成笑容
爱来过
让我完整过幸福过
怎么能轻易就放它走
我不想解脱
我只怕错过
我就是要等你回来爱我

寂寞喧哗我不害怕
因为我只听得见对你的牵挂
世界很大
会容得下我这小小傻傻顽固的信仰
你有没有过承诺我已忘了
那已不重要了
反正我都会守候
在梦中守候
我最唯一最美的梦

谢谢你，
让我永远记得自己疯狂过。

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Let go...

U were everything that i wanted.
we were meant to be,
suppose to be,
but we lose it.

All our memories
so close to me,
so clear to me,
but just fade away.

Thank u for making such a decision.
Now u're free,
I'm free.
No one is needing each other.

Just let things go...this way.
I can bear with this,
i'm happy with this.

Thanks for the memories.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Home...

There're usually a bright windy sunny day before 5pm...

But after 5...

rains fall heavily!

and non stopable.

During those day when i was home,

it always rain till night.

cold~ cold~

Nevermind,

we still manage to cook our tea-time snack.

nice to gather around and enjoy some home-made pancake.

eat eat~

They are playing millionair...

Me too!!

Hehee...

don't know what so attractive they want me to join.

ok lor, play for no harm.

Hah~

we played for hours...

and finally i bankrap jor.

ceh~

不好玩的。

My mum..

she's crazily doing some ENZYME!!

u know what is that?

its...enzyme lor.

don't know how to explain.

(>.<)

Taadaa~

this is the enzymes that can DRINK!

it taste good..just like juice plus alcohol,

or champaigne.

and it is healthy too!!

my brilliant mum.

hehee.

Now i'm far away from home.

In KL already.

Start to miss them jor.

miss those moment.

Got to be strong,

i'm used to be mature.

Mature enough to handle the feeling of homesick.

I know i can.

mmm.

下雨天

不管我在哪里，
都是下着雨的气息。

感.伤.

我不知道这样的天气，
会让我出现这样的情绪。

......

没关系，反正我喜欢雨天。

人真的是非常情绪化，
一点点的差别，
就可以造成天壤之别。

雨打在屋顶，
嘀嗒嘀嗒，
很好听。
我喜欢在这样的声音里入睡，
还有回忆。

总会想起......

以前下雨，
住在宿舍里的我们，
会跑出去淋雨。

以前下雨，
打着篮球的我们，
会继续打着雨中篮球。

以前下雨，
在班上上课的我们，
都会不约而同地望向窗外。

以前下雨多美好。

现在...
我只可以站在门口，
看着雨滴坠落，
看着自己坠入，
回忆里的美好时光。

让自己慢慢回忆从前。
那些回不去的，从前。

Whatever u say

Whatever u say, i'm not going to listen again. Whatever u say, i'm not going to trust u again. Whatever u say, it's not going to make me move. Because u always told me things that u're not doing, told me lie. What on earth can i take to believe u again?? u're driving me to hell. Idiot u!!

If i can stand infront of u right here right now, i'm going to punch u HARD! I'll talk to u CURTLY! I'll glare at u!! U're making things complicated, don't u realise it?? Din't ur mum teach u not to butt in people's stuff when no one ask u so?? Can't u just...just stay away from me??

I hate u!!

U're bringing me trouble!!

How muc i wish that i could NEVER known u. NEVER!!

S**ksss!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Home Sweet Home...

Holding my thicket,
finally i'm going home today.

It's been long i haven't meet my family,
i miss them.
especially my younger siblings.
bet that they miss me too!
hehee.

3pm...
my thicket time.
after 5 hours,
i'll be home.

And surely i can't sleep a good sleep tonight.
Because my sis and bro is going to question me as many and as long as they can.
things like : how's school going on..how about H1N1..do u met bad people..does any1 bully u..do u feel suit in KL..do u go shopping and movie every weekend..do u crush on some one (-.-"')..and so on.
By turn, i'll be asking them how their life going on..does any1 fight against each other..any1 fall ill or not..any1 got punished from school..any guys approach to them..any gal approach to my lil bro anot..hahaa, and so on.

Because i love them,
and they love me as well.
so we will spend the whole night staying up in my room talking till all of us talk slower, slower, slower...and finally silent.
This is what happen ever since i leave home to study when i'm 13 years old.
A good moment to pull us close to each other.

The next day,
we'll all wake up and prepare our western style breakfast.
altogether.
My family.

God,
thanks for taking a good care of them when i'm not around.
thanks for blessing them.
Thanks.

Can't wait to go home now.
Can't wait.

Friday, August 21, 2009

假期来了

开学后的第一次假期终于来了！
可是，我却觉得不想放假...
应该是读书太多脑壳坏掉了，
以前的我是最.最.最.最期待假期的！
现在竟然不想放假。
天啊~

最近读书读得蛮辛苦的，
学校老师教得好快，
他们以为我们是电脑，
一听就懂就记得。
老师啊，您太看得起我们了啦！
其实我们很迟钝的！

既然不明白，
就要靠自己来弄明白。
本来我想补习的，
可是却没有多余的钱。
有点遗憾。
钱不是万能，
没有钱却万万不能。

住在二伯家一个月了，
我过得很好。
二伯伯母很照顾我，
堂哥们也对我不错（其实是很.很.很.很好那种！）,
至少，
那份归属感让我不怕读书的烦恼。
读书的烦恼我从来不带回家，
难怪他们总觉得我读得很轻松。
其实，
在学校里朋友们都说我很拼。
呵呵，我是有点拼。
因为我不能输！
不能输给我自己。

然后发现，
身体有点...累累的，
感觉好像快撑不下去了。
照照镜子，
黑眼圈好深哦！
看看自己，
变得好憔悴哦！
(好像看到鬼酱...)

然后放学回到家，
我就坐在沙发上......睡.着.了！
真的好累。

所以说，
假期是让我们充电的时光。

可是我还是不想放假，
因为在学校，
只要看到你，
我就充满活力了！

爱情的力量啊...呵呵。

Thursday, August 20, 2009

一席之地

你在我心中，
占有一席之地。
没有办法轻易拔除，
也没有办法轻易否认。

要是有一天，
这块地变得越来越大，
越来越大，
而你...
却离我越来越远，
越来越远。

我...是不是会回到过去，
变成那个总是为你而哭的，
大笨蛋...？

没关系，我不在乎。
因为...我只在乎你。

你在我心中，
占有一席之地。

开满花的一块地，
好美丽的一块地。

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

臭臭的城堡

臭臭住新家了！
这个...就是她的小屋。
看起来很舒服，对不对？
这是属于公主式小洋房哦！

她的城堡范围......
呃，对她来说，

这种范围算大了。

呵呵。

她还会很自动地跑去摩天轮盘运动呢！

真不愧是我的臭臭。

聪明得不得了...

好可爱。

运动后第一件事就是找食物！

有点炸到的感觉。

臭臭啊，

这样运动不就白费了吗？

(>_<"')

算了，你开心就好啦！

臭臭，你知道吗？

自从有了你，

我每天都过得充满期待耶！

期待起床后可以看看你，

放学后可以摸摸你，

做完功课后可以陪你玩...

好高兴有你陪我，

真的。

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Monster my hamster..

Taadaa!!

Here it is my little Monster.

Just hope to own it forever.

But i know it is impossible.

For its life span is only 2 years.

Somehow,
I shall appreciate the moment now.

Cute, isn't it?
Don't u dare to say NO!
Hehee.

Monday, August 17, 2009

我的小仓鼠

今天，朋友送了一只好小好小，
小到好可爱的仓鼠给我。

什么品种哦？
是golden + winter = golter 吧？！
哈，我也不知道。

好可爱。
班上的同学都围着那小不点打转。
因为真的很可爱。
其实很担心它会被吓死，
因为它们...胆小得很脆弱。
如果在养它的第一天就被我断送生命，
相信我，
我会内疚到死！

带回家后，闪光灯就没停过。
一直帮它拍照拍照，
拍了好多张。
以后有空就upload上来给你们看。

真的好可爱。

晚上做数学题时，突然感动了一下下。
因为有个小东西在陪着我。
我终于不是一个人呆在书房里做功课了！

才发现有人陪伴真的好舒服。
哇~
我开始把他当人看待了...(>_<)

心情就是一直重复着‘我不寂寞了’的快乐。
天啊，我真的很喜欢它！

要为它取什么名呢？
其实我想叫它臭臭。
不要问我原因，因为这是一种直觉。
我对它的直觉。

臭臭...其实也蛮好听的嘛！
就叫他臭臭吧。

臭臭，今天就定为你的生日吧！
生日快乐！
希望你仓鼠的两年寿命可以过得很幸福快乐。
我会把你喂饱饱的。
呵呵。

Saturday, August 15, 2009

妈

不应该这样的，不可以这样！

刚才打电话给妈妈，她说她在医院，有点不舒服。
心里开始担心是不是...H1N1。

可是，我还是和朋友开开心心地到戏院看戏。

再次打电话给妈妈时，弟弟接起电话。
他说：“妈病了，医生说她操劳过度。”

呼吸停了两秒，心揪了起来。
好痛。
我的妈妈，她操劳过度。
现在累倒了。

眼泪流了下来，我好心痛。

我到底在干嘛？！

我竟然在妈妈累得病倒的时候，和朋友们去看戏！
在我享受这些奢侈的快乐时，妈却辛苦地躺在床上。
我到底在干嘛？？

突然好想家，突然好想回家。
突然好想打自己一巴掌，让自己清醒一点，
因为我竟然那么自私！
让妈妈辛苦工作，然后我在挥霍。

我真的很没有用。

我没有好好读书。

我很自私。

坐在朋友的车后座，我紧紧咬着牙，硬硬忍着眼泪。
进到LRT 里，终于决堤。
心痛后悔担心自责...心情复杂得不得了。
眼泪也多得不得了。

回到家，坐在电脑前，
我静静的，静静的，
哭了很久很久。

对不起。
我太不会想了。

对不起。
原谅我。

Thursday, August 13, 2009

...

记得我曾经送给你的歌吗？
<轨迹>。
里面的歌词，有我想对你说的话。
再次听一遍，发现心还是会流泪。

Promise...

I thought i was making a silly deal with u when i found out that u totally forget what u'd promise me yesterday.
But when u handed me the plastic bag,
i was blank.
Totally blank.

How u got it? do u went back home? am i making u feel guilty?

U're kind. Too kind of u that i don't deserve it.
I was...touched.
Can just stare at u.
And when u turn around,
i smile a happy smile.
hehee.

Would like to say,
Thank u.
For keeping the promise unbroken.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

It End Today...

Finally my 1st-F6-test was over!
wow...relief.

But i'm sure that i'll face more trouble when the time come to me to get my result.
I dang on Chemistry and Biology and I skipped many Math question although it consist only 5 question I might draw a wrong graph on Pengajian Am and my MUET isn't done in plenty of time I write a lots of 'sorry' in every test paper to teacher for i do not know how to do the question and I......

Naw. leave it all to the other day.
Today i just want to relax...and go to pasar malam!

Oh God, please don't rain!
The pasar malam is waiting for me.
(>_<)

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

后悔极了...

今天受到打击，全身像是被雷打到。

好后悔。

While the rain falls drop by drop from sky,
my heart fall into pieces.

Regret-ing.

God bless me, Amen!

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Mum come!

Today's Sunday.
and a surprise for me...
Mum came!
out of my expectation.

I felt a comfortable sense of belonging.
For I always know that she will always be there.
Whenever I badly need someone to hug.
And I'll always be her princess,
forever princess.

p/s: 真的好开心...
考试不理它了！
先玩够本再说。
呵呵。

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Exam Coming Soon Jor...

Next week's exam.
I don't want to upset my dad and mum with a bad result.
I don't want to upset myself, too.
for i tried hard to be a professional student.

Gahhh...
I'm doing my best to read jor!
but this book is very thiiiiiiick...
Biology is fun, yet isn't easy.
it's quite hard for me to understand..and remember.
well, my brain isn't a well-equiped comp.
it is just an old-fashioned comp,
a lousy one.

Can't help me in remembering all the fact!

mamamiii aaa~
nervous grows.

F6...huh, now i see u chuckling.

Friday, August 7, 2009

错过的时候

刚刚发现，我错过了永恒里唯一的一次123456789。

12:34:56pm 7/8/9

对，就是这个。
一辈子一次的事情啊，我怎么给忘了？

我好像一直在错过，不停地错过。
每一次，一些期待很久很久的事情，
终于要发生时，我就会错过。
后悔和遗憾的感觉对我来说，
已经从心痛难过，
慢慢转变成无奈。

无奈，真的只能无奈。
因为那些事情已经发生，已经过去。
我已经回不去。

想...回到过去，
我好想从前，
我好想你。

只有一张张的照片可以翻阅回忆。

这些对我来说是不够的，
根本就不够。

我要很真实很真实的感受，
我要很近距离的画面。
我要我们回到过去，
那段没有多余感情的时光。

那段只有
很单纯很单纯地坐在楼梯口聊天的时光，
很单纯很单纯地打篮球的时光，
很单纯很单纯的时光。

我很喜欢那时候的你
你也很喜欢那时候的我
的时光。